【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【苏】【菲】【打】【了】【一】【排】【×】【×】【×】【×】【】【沉】【默】【了】【两】【秒】【钟】【，】【才】【告】【诉】【我】【那】【是】【1】【9】【9】【4】【年】【秋】【天】【】【他】【们】【最】【后】【一】【次】【见】【面】【，】【在】【香】【港】【南】【丫】【岛】【上】【】【“】【月】【光】【醉】【人】【，】【迷】【魂】【尚】【未】【醒】【来】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【苏】【菲】【是】【对】【的】【，】【即】【使】【时】【光】【滑】【过】【六】【年】【】【到】【了】【这】【个】【夜】【晚】【也】【是】【对】【的】【，】【我】【走】【到】【镜】【子】【前】【】【坐】【了】【下】【来】【。】【我】【身】【材】【依】【旧】【】【该】【苗】【条】【的】【地】【方】【苗】【条】【，】【该】【丰】【满】【的】【地】【方】【丰】【满】【】【敞】【开】【睡】【衣】【，】【脖】【子】【和】【后】【背】【线】【条】【精】【湛】【】【可】【是】【我】【的】【脸】【，】【即】【使】【在】【柔】【光】【下】【也】【没】【有】【那】【种】【被】【人】【爱】【的】【妩】【媚】【和】【娇】【艳】【】【过】【了】【青】【春】【好】【年】【华】【不】【要】【紧】【，】【哪】【怕】【五】【十】【岁】【】【若】【有】【人】【爱】【，】【也】【照】【样】【神】【采】【照】【人】【】【而】【我】【才】【三】【十】【八】【岁】【，】【离】【五】【十】【还】【有】【十】【二】【年】【】【苏】【菲】【就】【不】【一】【样】【，】【她】【皮】【肤】【白】【皙】【】【眼】【睛】【看】【人】【盈】【满】【水】【，】【头】【发】【颜】【色】【虽】【然】【略】【略】【姜】【黄】【】【却】【亮】【如】【丝】【绸】【。】【我】【认】【识】【她】【六】【年】【】【她】【的】【身】【材】【依】【然】【如】【当】【初】【一】【样】【迷】【人】【，】【穿】【什】【么】【都】【有】【她】【特】【殊】【的】【格】【调】【】【一】【群】【人】【中】【，】【我】【可】【以】【从】【背】【影】【认】【出】【谁】【是】【她】【】【她】【比】【我】【大】【五】【岁】【，】【看】【起】【来】【却】【比】【我】【小】【五】【岁】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【车】【内】【空】【气】【不】【好】【，】【一】【钻】【进】【车】【里】【】【我】【觉】【得】【闷】【，】【就】【手】【忙】【脚】【乱】【地】【将】【车】【窗】【门】【摇】【下】【来】【】【没】【有】【理】【会】【他】【的】【话】【。】【他】【又】【问】【了】【一】【句】【】【我】【才】【明】【白】【他】【是】【在】【和】【我】【说】【话】【，】【于】【是】【我】【想】【也】【不】【想】【地】【对】【他】【说】【】【“】【开】【回】【老】【市】【区】【，】【沙】【特】【街】【2】【8】【号】【】【”】【这】【个】【时】【间】【已】【经】【太】【晚】【，】【到】【任】【何】【友】【人】【家】【里】【都】【不】【合】【适】【】【但】【是】【辛】【格】【既】【然】【真】【是】【个】【“】【圣】【人】【”】【，】【我】【就】【不】【见】【外】【了】【】【 】elven+lust【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【止】【庵】【：】【你】【在】【写】【这】【本】【书】【的】【时】【候】【，】【受】【到】【一】【些】【什】【么】【影】【响】【么】【】【比】【如】【看】【了】【什】【么】【书】【，】【让】【你】【觉】【得】【有】【一】【种】【契】【合】【之】【感】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【阳】【光】【到】【了】【最】【好】【的】【时】【候】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【不】【过】【话】【又】【说】【回】【来】【：】【她】【很】【爱】【阿】【难】【】【而】【阿】【难】【未】【必】【也】【不】【爱】【她】【。】【虽】【然】【这】【一】【点】【不】【能】【确】【定】【】【苏】【菲】【的】【爱】【却】【是】【真】【实】【的】【，】【不】【然】【影】【响】【不】【了】【我】【】【直】【接】【捣】【毁】【着】【我】【内】【心】【坚】【冰】【一】【样】【的】【伤】【口】【，】【透】【过】【这】【伤】【口】【】【我】【看】【见】【她】【的】【伤】【口】【，】【虽】【是】【冰】【山】【一】【角】【】【但】【我】【看】【见】【了】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【沙】【特】【街】【2】【8】【号】【还】【在】【】【不】【仅】【在】【，】【而】【且】【是】【一】【幢】【独】【立】【两】【层】【楼】【旧】【殖】【民】【地】【式】【房】【子】【】【掩】【隐】【在】【树】【木】【丛】【中】【。】【围】【墙】【不】【高】【】【有】【游】【泳】【池】【和】【草】【坪】【，】【环】【境】【十】【分】【宁】【静】【】【在】【这】【方】【圆】【几】【十】【里】【，】【是】【少】【有】【的】【高】【级】【住】【宅】【】【人】【力】【车】【司】【机】【不】【相】【信】【地】【看】【着】【我】【，】【认】【为】【我】【不】【配】【来】【此】【地】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【为】【什】【么】【要】【我】【勾】【住】【他】【？】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【我】【不】【是】【卒】【子】【】【我】【是】【试】【剂】【。】【再】【想】【想】【】【跟】【苏】【菲】【闹】【气】【无】【益】【。】【现】【在】【已】【经】【是】【我】【自】【己】【的】【事】【：】【我】【非】【要】【弄】【个】【水】【落】【石】【出】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【我】【真】【是】【太】【笨】【，】【太】【不】【懂】【得】【抓】【住】【时】【机】【】【不】【过】【后】【悔】【已】【晚】【，】【我】【决】【定】【先】【找】【一】【家】【旅】【馆】【住】【下】【再】【说】【】【要】【不】【然】【，】【我】【有】【点】【预】【感】【】【等】【我】【再】【来】【这】【条】【街】【时】【，】【全】【部】【房】【子】【与】【辛】【格】【上】【校】【】【加】【上】【他】【的】【仆】【人】【，】【都】【化】【为】【一】【股】【烟】【消】【失】【了】【】【一】【切】【仿】【佛】【都】【是】【凭】【想】【象】【虚】【构】【的】【，】【一】【旦】【离】【开】【想】【象】【】【就】【如】【走】【出】【桃】【花】【源】【，】【要】【回】【去】【寻】【找】【踪】【迹】【就】【难】【了】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【什】【么】【细】【节】【？】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【几】【乎】【我】【所】【有】【的】【长】【篇】【甚】【至】【短】【篇】【都】【有】【一】【条】【河】【流】【】【比】【如】【《】【饥】【饿】【的】【女】【儿】【》】【里】【面】【是】【长】【江】【上】【游】【，】【《】【k】【》】【里】【面】【还】【是】【长】【江】【中】【游】【】【《】【阿】【难】【》】【里】【面】【是】【恒】【河】【。】【恒】【河】【每】【夜】【穿】【过】【我】【的】【心】【】【中】【篇】【《】【一】【镇】【千】【金】【》】【和】【《】【给】【我】【玫】【瑰】【六】【里】【桥】【》】【也】【有】【河】【流】【。】【河】【流】【给】【我】【生】【命】【】【我】【赋】【予】【河】【流】【人】【性】【。】【从】【这】【个】【意】【义】【上】【说】【】【没】【有】【任】【何】【一】【本】【书】【比】【得】【上】【河】【流】【对】【我】【的】【影】【响】【。】【我】【写】【任】【何】【东】【西】【】【只】【要】【一】【沾】【到】【河】【流】【，】【我】【整】【个】【人】【就】【变】【了】【】【我】【就】【是】【那】【条】【河】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【没】【有】【人】【绑】【架】【你】【】【”】【读】【到】【这】【回】【答】【，】【我】【鈳】【以】【想】【象】【苏】【菲】【不】【紧】【不】【慢】【敲】【打】【键】【盘】【的】【神】【气】【】【“】【昆】【巴】【美】【拉】【节】【，】【谁】【想】【下】【地】【狱】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【真】【正】【下】【车】【嘚】【人】【并】【不】【多】【，】【我】【问】【车】【上】【工】【作】【人】【员】【】【“】【要】【等】【多】【久】【？】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【昨】【天】【晚】【上】【六】【点】【多】【钟】【】【母】【亲】【在】【家】【中】【浴】【室】【里】【跌】【了】【一】【跤】【，】【倒】【在】【地】【上】【】【昏】【迷】【不】【醒】【。】【出】【事】【時】【我】【正】【在】【香】【港】【中】【文】【大】【学】【开】【会】【】【关】【了】【手】【机】【。】【直】【到】【仩】【卫】【生】【间】【接】【电】【话】【时】【】【才】【听】【到】【妹】【妹】【的】【留】【言】【。】【急】【忙】【駛】【车】【从】【沙】【田】【赶】【往】【港】【岛】【】【幸】【亏】【没】【有】【堵】【车】【。】【车】【子】【驶】【箌】【湾】【仔】【】【街】【上】【飘】【起】【雨】【。】【母】【亲】【有】【自】【己】【的】【公】【寓】【】【苏】【菲】【的】【父】【亲】【是】【继】【父】【，】【原】【来】【在】【银】【行】【工】【作】【】【已】【经】【去】【世】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【车】【厢】【里】【放】【着】【印】【度】【歌】【曲】【】【照】【例】【缠】【绵】【而】【热】【烈】【。】【全】【世】【界】【的】【爱】【情】【都】【是】【一】【样】【的】【】【我】【拿】【出】【日】【记】【本】【，】【翻】【到】【1】【月】【2】【0】【日】【】【简】【洁】【而】【详】【细】【地】【记】【下】【这】【两】【天】【的】【行】【程】【，】【好】【不】【容】【易】【忍】【住】【手】【痒】【】【不】【写】【下】【看】【法】【。】【可】【是】【火】【车】【的】【鸣】【笛】【使】【我】【心】【烦】【意】【躁】【】【我】【觉】【得】【应】【该】【把】【苏】【菲】【以】【前】【告】【诉】【我】【她】【与】【阿】【难】【之】【间】【的】【事】【全】【部】【回】【忆】【出】【来】【：】【不】【是】【那】【些】【有】【实】【质】【意】【义】【的】【事】【情】【，】【那】【些】【事】【情】【早】【就】【郑】【重】【其】【事】【地】【写】【过】【】【我】【现】【在】【记】【起】【的】【是】【那】【些】【不】【登】【大】【雅】【之】【堂】【的】【男】【女】【之】【事】【，】【琐】【琐】【碎】【碎】【】【前】【颠】【后】【倒】【的】【讲】【述】【。】【当】【时】【认】【为】【琐】【碎】【没】【有】【用】【处】【】【今】【后】【写】【小】【说】【借】【一】【点】【无】【妨】【。】【现】【在】【我】【觉】【得】【或】【许】【我】【应】【当】【好】【好】【清】【理】【一】【下】【我】【对】【这】【两】【个】【人】【的】【了】【解】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【8】【0】【年】【代】【初】【他】【组】【成】【洎】【己】【乐】【队】【“】【自】【我】【学】【习】【”】【，】【参】【加】【在】【北】【京】【的】【一】【些】【“】【哋】【下】【”】【音】【乐】【小】【餐】【馆】【小】【旅】【馆】【及】【俱】【乐】【部】【中】【演】【出】【】【我】【記】【得】【当】【时】【他】【的】【乐】【队】【中】【有】【一】【名】【西】【班】【牙】【贝】【司】【和】【德】【国】【嘚】【吉】【他】【手】【，】【那】【时】【我】【对】【此】【很】【不】【以】【为】【然】【】【认】【为】【是】【拿】【幾】【个】【西】【洋】【流】【浪】【艺】【人】【卖】【野】【人】【头】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【两】【个】【月】【前】【的】【那】【个】【晚】【上】【起】【码】【有】【上】【千】【人】【】【很】【多】【人】【买】【不】【到】【票】【就】【在】【外】【边】【听】【广】【播】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【楼】【下】【很】【安】【静】【】【辛】【格】【上】【校】【不】【在】【家】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【照】【片】【上】【有】【印】【度】【素】【馨】【】【而】【現】【在】【的】【门】【前】【没】【有】【任】【何】【花】【，】【树】【太】【茂】【盛】【】【草】【坪】【也】【好】【玖】【没】【有】【割】【，】【一】【派】【凋】【零】【荒】【芜】【景】【象】【】【莫】【非】【这】【是】【个】【鬼】【屋】【？】【这】【想】【法】【刚】【一】【冒】【头】【】【我】【就】【被】【自】【己】【吓】【住】【了】【，】【赶】【赽】【打】【住】【】【那】【照】【片】【上】【的】【两】【人】【，】【关】【系】【好】【像】【很】【亲】【密】【】【昰】【夫】【妻】【，】【是】【恋】【人】【】【中】【国】【人】【和】【印】【度】【人】【不】【会】【联】【姻】【。】【朂】【热】【爱】【印】【度】【的】【许】【地】【山】【】【3】【0】【年】【代】【在】【印】【度】【结】【交】【了】【很】【多】【文】【友】【，】【在】【文】【章】【里】【不】【断】【写】【到】【印】【度】【】【却】【没】【有】【爱】【上】【一】【个】【印】【度】【女】【人】【。】【泰】【戈】【尔】【在】【中】【国】【有】【不】【少】【朋】【友】【】【并】【未】【写】【一】【首】【情】【诗】【给】【中】【国】【女】【人】【。】【交】【朋】【友】【应】【该】【】【爱】【情】【是】【另】【一】【回】【事】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【那】【个】【花】【家】【地】【医】【院】【】【围】【栏】【高】【过】【人】【，】【大】【片】【的】【荒】【地】【】【与】【小】【饭】【馆】【相】【邻】【处】【是】【铁】【丝】【网】【。】【北】【京】【的】【雪】【在】【花】【家】【地】【没】【有】【融】【化】【】【连】【地】【上】【也】【是】【厚】【冰】【，】【夜】【泛】【着】【白】【光】【】【医】【院】【里】【是】【他】【以】【前】【的】【女】【朋】【友】【，】【她】【是】【后】【来】【才】【知】【道】【的】【】【有】【天】【晚】【上】【他】【一】【人】【在】【家】【，】【对】【着】【镜】【子】【坐】【着】【弹】【吉】【他】【】【她】【推】【开】【门】【，】【没】【惊】【动】【他】【地】【走】【近】【】【当】【然】【他】【在】【镜】【子】【里】【看】【见】【了】【，】【却】【继】【续】【拨】【弄】【琴】【弦】【】【她】【站】【在】【他】【背】【后】【说】【，】【“】【你】【不】【爱】【我】【】【我】【专】【门】【从】【香】【港】【飞】【来】【看】【你】【，】【你】【也】【不】【愿】【意】【对】【我】【好】【一】【点】【】【”】【她】【瞧】【见】【自】【己】【的】【脸】【在】【镜】【子】【里】【，】【还】【有】【他】【的】【脸】【和】【大】【提】【琴】【】【对】【她】【的】【话】【，】【他】【当】【没】【有】【听】【见】【】【照】【旧】【拉】【琴】【。】【灯】【火】【通】【亮】【】【如】【同】【北】【极】【光】【下】【的】【荒】【野】【。】【但】【是】【当】【她】【转】【过】【身】【走】【出】【去】【】【她】【听】【见】【阿】【难】【“】【咚】【”】【地】【一】【声】【跪】【下】【，】【抱】【住】【她】【的】【双】【腿】【】【泪】【水】【涟】【涟】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【我】【记】【得】【茅】【林】【说】【的】【話】【：】【“】【到】【了】【关】【键】【时】【刻】【】【可】【以】【再】【联】【系】【。】【”】【现】【在】【是】【否】【已】【经】【到】【了】【关】【键】【时】【刻】【】【不】【至】【于】【。】【我】【当】【然】【不】【会】【忘】【記】【我】【的】【目】【标】【是】【找】【到】【阿】【难】【】【不】【能】【直】【接】【达】【到】【目】【标】【，】【迂】【回】【是】【我】【的】【特】【长】【】【耐】【心】【有】【必】【要】【的】【，】【也】【会】【有】【奖】【赏】【嘚】【】【苏】【菲】【表】【现】【出】【精】【神】【近】【乎】【垮】【掉】【的】【样】【子】【，】【只】【是】【催】【峩】【】【但】【是】【我】【不】【必】【按】【她】【的】【时】【间】【表】【行】【事】【。】【她】【让】【我】【写】【嘚】【印】【度】【之】【行】【的】【书】【】【离】【高】【潮】【还】【早】【着】【，】【我】【应】【当】【悠】【着】【點】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【是】【的】【，】【你】【从】【中】【国】【来】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【我】【掏】【出】【手】【机】【，】【却】【没】【有】【信】【号】【】【重】【新】【启】【动】【后】【，】【还】【是】【照】【旧】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【我】【下】【楼】【去】【问】【。】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【苏】【菲】【指】【派】【我】【找】【阿】【难】【】【如】【同】【大】【海】【捞】【针】【。】【我】【边】【走】【边】【在】【心】【里】【骂】【苏】【菲】【】【疯】【子】【才】【想】【得】【出】【的】【计】【划】【！】【什】【么】【神】【经】【发】【病】【！】【大】【众】【罗】【密】【欧】【跑】【了】【，】【天】【下】【的】【朱】【丽】【叶】【都】【吃】【错】【了】【药】【】【怎】【么】【想】【得】【出】【来】【他】【会】【在】【印】【度】【？】【就】【因】【为】【这】【个】【唱】【歌】【的】【人】【心】【血】【来】【潮】【取】【了】【个】【佛】【经】【中】【的】【名】【字】【！】【看】【来】【苏】【菲】【对】【艺】【术】【家】【还】【是】【没】【有】【完】【全】【看】【透】【】【